A Birthday Gift — Forgive My Joy Being Here

MY HISTORY — ORIGINALLY POSTED JANUARY 18, 2023 ON INSTAGRAM@THEPOINTOFYOU

My birthday is (was) on Jan 16th. Most years, I have struggled through it, preferring to just ignore it and let it pass.

This year, I experienced this familiar struggle, with more clarity and compassion than ever before. I now understand that my birthday falls in the 2nd moon cycle of the year — the one where our transformation work is about learning to shift from shaming to forgiving the Joy of being true to our Selves. For me this looks like a shift from shaming my Self for being frivolous and wasting time, to forgiving my Self for “playing” and “having a good time,” living in each moment with full enjoyment.

This birthday, the shaming kicked in, yet again, regarding where I “should be” in my life.  I’m learning to allow my Self to balance the truth of some realities that trigger truly terrifying fears, with the truth of some realities that invite exiting new possibilities and hope, and choosing to live into my dreams, present moment by present moment, choice by choice … starting with spending my birthday in Manzanita, with the man I love.