2021 Journey 4th Moon Cycle OPEN
MY HISTORY — ORIGINALLY POSTED MARCH 24, 2021 ON INSTAGRAM@THEPOINTOFYOU
Happy (belated) Spring Equinox — the season of EMERGENCE.
We’re approaching the full moon of the 4th moon cycle of 2021. We now ACCEPT “what is” (1st moon cycle), FORGIVE ourselves for not being who others need/want/expect us to be for them (2nd moon cycle), DESERVE to be happy/valued/supported/independent/etc (3rd moon cycle), and now we add the next step to OPEN to the SOVEREIGN POWER of who we truly are and what we truly desire:
I Am Good. I Am Relevant. I Am Capable. I Am Acceptable. I Am Knowing. I Am Wanted. I Am Love(d).
I Am Sovereign.
This year’s “opening” has felt somewhat like opening Pandora’s Box. I recall saying that last year, too. I now understand that each year, as I open to more possibility, I am reminded of how inherently powerful I am, and how I subconsciously took it all away from my Self, as punishment for “being” not good. (Next year, the 4th moon cycle will come with a reminder: CARE-FULL WHEN OPENING.)
Yesterday, I received official notice that the home I rent has been sold to a new owner. It’s likely (inevitable?) that we will be asked to leave soon. Even though I’ve been desiring to move someplace closer to nature, it feels like my home is being ripped out from underneath me, and this is bringing up old pain.
I miss the beautiful home I bought for my Self in Sacramento 25 years ago, that I sold to buy a beautiful home in Portland almost 20 years ago, that I sold 11 years ago, when I got divorced and lost my job, and I was very close to dying and didn’t know it.
As I open to the possibility of owning a beautiful home, again, and face not seeing how that is possible, yet, I feel frustration, anger, shame and unworthiness. In the past, I would have attached to it all and used it to keep me down.
Today, I ACCEPT “what is.” I FORGIVE my Self for unknowingly choosing to defeat my Self and see the turn-around and come-back that I AM creating in my life, and own that I DO DESERVE to be happy, and I CAN choose to OPEN to my SOVEREIGN POWER and allow my Self to “receive."
I see so many possibilities, right in front of me, just waiting for me to be OPEN to them. THIS is the 4th moon cycle: I OPEN.
