A Beginning — Journey Book 2020
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The Journey Book 2020 begins with two “maps” (see photo below).
These models are visual representations of the journeys we take when we let the subconscious choices of our diminished "ego-mind" guide us, versus when we consciously choose to let our undiminished "higher-Self" guide us. The Point of YOU is your personal key to unlocking the door to your higher-Self.
The Diminished State of Being begins with Self-denial in dependency, then requires Self-defense in co-dependency and culminates in Self-defeat in separation. Energetically and emotionally, we experience this as a feeling of downward spiral into pain and darkness.
The Undiminished State of Being begins with Self-awareness that shifts our attitude from dependency into responsible sovereignty, then empowers Self-expression that shifts our energy from co-dependency into empowered partnership, then fulfills Self-realization that shifts direction from separation into inspired leadership. Energetically and emotionally, we experience this as a feeling of upward spiral into Joy and lightness.
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POWER + GRACE = LOVE
From Summer through the Fall Equinox in 2019, I was shown another significant "layer" of this work:
In our diminished state of being in Self-denial, we give away our personal POWER through dependency, then defend our Selves and fall from GRACE in co-dependency, then defeat our Selves and withhold LOVE with separation.
The Point of YOU unlocks Self-awareness that allows us to get over our Self-denial and accept responsibility for our power to choose for our Selves. SOVEREIGNTY in POWER is the energy of DIVINE FEMININE.
In SOVEREIGN POWER, we no longer need to defend our Selves by fighting. The Point of You unlocks Self-expression that invites the possibilities we desire, with grace and compassion. SOVEREIGN PARTNERSHIP in GRACE is the energy of DIVINE MASCULINE.
With POWER and GRACE, we no longer defeat our Selves through controlled separation. The Point of You unlocks Self-realization that inspires a new direction, with love for our Selves and others. LEADERSHIP in LOVE is the energy of the wholeness of DIVINE BEING.
THE YEARLY CYCLES
About 3 years ago [2017], I began paying closer attention to the relationship between the energy of the seasons (Winter, Spring, Summer and Fall), the moon cycles, and our yearly journeys of "undiminishing," and I uncovered profound alignments and cycles (see photo below).
During the 1ST FOUR MOON CYCLES, starting with the moon that includes the Winter Solstice, our intention is reclaiming our POWER in SOVEREIGNTY:
— Be Aware of our Self-denial and dependence.
— Shift Attitude from resist-stance to accept-stance.
— Return to sovereignty with divine feminine power.
In the 1st moon cycle of the year, we focus on Self-awareness around the power we can begin to allow our Selves in sovereignty. In the 2nd moon cycle, we focus on Self-expression and the grace we can begin to allow our Selves in sovereignty. In the 3rd moon cycle, we focus on Self-realization and the love we can begin to allow our Selves in sovereignty. And in the 4th moon cycle, we complete our focus on Self-awareness with power in sovereignty.
During the 2ND FOUR MOON CYCLES, our intention is returning to GRACE in PARTNERSHIP:
— Be Aware of our Self-defense and co-dependence.
— Shift Attitude from opposition to invitation.
— Return to partnership with divine masculine grace.
In the 5th moon cycle of the year, we focus on Self-expression and the grace we begin to invite in partnership. In the 6th moon cycle, we focus on Self-realization and the love we begin to invite in partnership. In the 7th moon cycle, we focus on new Self-awareness and the power we can invite in partnership. And in the 8th moon cycle we complete our focus on Self-Expression with grace in partnership.
During the 3RD FOUR MOON CYCLES, our intention is bringing our LOVE to life in LEADERSHIP:
— Be Aware of our Self-defeat and separation.
— Shift Attitude from control to inspiration.
— Return to leadership as a divine being of love.
In the 9th moon cycle of the year, we focus on Self-realization and the love we can inspire in leadership. In the 10th moon cycle, we focus on Self-Awareness and the power we can inspire in leadership. In the 11th moon cycle, we focus on Self-Expression and the grace we can inspire in leadership. And in the 12th moon cycle, we complete our focus on Self-Realization with love in leadership.
During the 13th MOON CYCLE OF 2020, our intention is REVERENCE in DEVOTION:
— Own your divine power in sovereignty.
— Bring your divine grace in partnership.
— Live your divine love in leadership.
In the 13th moon cycle of the year, we focus on Self-reflection and gratitude for the fulfillment of this year's journey.
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Here's the overview page for first yearly focus on opening up to our divine feminine POWER in SOVEREIGNTY (see photo below).
We experience two season changes during this focus. The Winter Solstice—the beginning of our season of transformation and restructuring for this year's growth—occurs near the end of the first cycle of working on Self-awareness that allows an attitude shift from resist-stance to accept-stance of our POWER. And the Spring Equinox—the beginning of our season of emergence out into the world with this POWER in SOVEREIGNTY—occurs near the end the end of the second moon cycle of working on Self-awareness that allows an attitude shift from resist-stance to accept-stance of our POWER ... and just before we move into the second yearly focus on bringing this POWER with divine masculine GRACE into SOVEREIGN PARTNERSHIP.
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I deliberately left lots of blank space to make notes and/or to doodle in whatever way(s) that inspire you. I decided to doodle-a-mandala-day-by-day, to visually represent this part of my journey. What inspires you?
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Here (see photos below) are my daily entries for the 1st moon cycle, from November 26th - December 24th, 2019, plus my summary page for "What Power Do I Allow Now?"
The practice is to capture one observation or takeaway or lesson from the day. During this 1st moon cycle, we're becoming more aware of the ways in which we limit our Selves and/or give away our power by choosing dependency on others for what we need and desire.
Notice that on the daily entry pages, at the top of the right page is the question: "What power can I allow?" Ultimately, that's the "archaeology" work we're doing and what our daily entries will begin to show us.
At the end of every moon cycle is a summary page . Notice that the question at the top of the summary page page for this first moon cycle shifts to: "What power do I allow now?"
I chose to use the left side of this page for capturing the key messages from the new moon page, the first quarter moon page, full moon page, and last quarter page. From these I identified 3 ways in which I choose to allow my Self power now (that I will be working on through the next 3 moon cycles):
1. I allow my Self the POWER to let loose, let go, let it be, and leave it. This relates to letting go of beliefs, pain and ways of being that no longer serve me. Ironically, "letting go" starts with "acceptance." It shows up big time for me related to not wanting to "have" to rescue others from their pain. If I don't want to rescue, then I get to "accept" that other's pain is not mine to "take" responsibility for fixing. I seriously feel like both dog and master here ... where I'm the dog that really wants that ball to play with, AND I'm the master saying "leave it." LOL!
2. I allow my Self the POWER to rise up ... out of my egoic mind and into my higher consciousness. Again, I find it funny that the phrase "rise up," which typically connotes an uprising/fight, means to me to "be at peace." I am practicing being in my power by feeling my way into that higher consciousness (state of grace), rather than trying to think my way there.
3. I allow my Self the POWER to hold my Self precious and commit to my Self — even when others don't. I realized that holding my Self precious can make others feel uncomfortable, if they aren't choosing to hold themselves precious or are pretending to take care of themselves in self-defeating ways. Taking care of my Self can sometimes feel "disruptive" to others ... and that's perfectly ok.
NOTE: If you're starting to use your Journey Book a bit later, no worries. I encourage you to think back and reflect on whatever experiences you remember during this moon cycle, and put them in this context to help you become more aware of the power you have been giving away and the power you get to choose to allow your Self (and others) this year.
The second moon cycle in the Journey Book began Dec 25th and ends Jan 23 -- next week!
In this cycle we are focusing on learning how to "express" the power we now allow our Selves, by "being" in that power, and we are going to see very clearly how challenged we are to "be" in that power when others aren't encouraging us or giving us permission to be ... or maybe even are discouraging and attempt to take away that permission from us (from their own diminished state of being).
The question at the top of these pages now asks: What grace can you allow? As we learn how to "be" in our power, we get to allow ourselves (and others) compassion, with what I call "vulnerable Self respect" ... we feel our vulnerability and choose to honor and be in our POWER anyway.
In this moon cycle our relationships are showing us exactly where we get to learn to "be" in our power with grace for our Selves (and others).
During the days after this last full moon (Jan 10th), the light is shining brightly on this theme:
Jan 13 - Mon: "You are welcome to offer me a possibility, and I get to choose for my Self whether or not I accept your offer, and you get to honor my choice."
Jan 14 - Tue: "I get to express what I need/choose, and you get to honor/respect it. You get to express what you need/choose, and I get to honor/respect it."
Jan 15 - Wed: "I don't need others to understand. I get to have compassion for my Self, and let it go."
Grace for me to be in my power, AND grace for you.
What ways are you uncovering that you can "express" by "being" in your power with grace for your Self, and then grace for others, too?
Here’s how my POWER ~ Sovereignty ~ divine feminine mandala is evolving. I’m having fun just adding a little ever day or two … with NO IDA where this is going!
How are your doodles coming to life?
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Today, we're completing the 2nd moon cycle (Dec 25th - Jan 23rd) of our 2020 journey. Now we get to look back at our entries during this time and reflect upon how they show us what grace we can allow our Selves, that we haven't allowed our Selves before.
Generally, it's become clear to me that this 2nd moon cycle – where we begin to practice "expressing" our power by "being" in it – is a doozy. I wrote in my JourneyBook:
"Shifting attitude to break old patterns of Self-denial is like breaking and resetting a bone that was broken and healed in misalignment." Ouch.
This is some serious metamorphosis/transformation work. We are the caterpillars, who know (deep down) that we are meant to fly but can't fly as caterpillars, so we're consciously choosing to go into our cocoons and "break down" into order to restructure our Selves with wings to fly.
We all have been bumping into and facing head on the very core of our diminished states-of-being ... so if it's been a rough month or so, please know, 'tis the season and you are not alone. And BIG KUDOS!
So ... on this night before the 3rd new moon, we each get to ask our Selves the question:
What GRACE do you allow, now?
Here's my summary:
• I allow my self the GRACE to forgive my self. [be at peace]
• I allow my self the GRACE to choose for my self and say, "no, thank you." [be disruptive]
• I allow my self the GRACE to be worthy and deserving. [to accept]
Interestingly (at least to me), when I declared last month what POWER I allow myself now, I ended up realizing that allowing my Self the POWER to let go, let it be and leave it, was about acceptance of what is. And allowing myself the POWER to rise up and be in my higher awareness (always) was about being in/at peace. And allowing my Self the POWER to hold my Self precious and commit to my Self, even when others don't, was about being disruptive. Much to my surprise, my commitments to GRACE were related to these same possibilities (see above). This was not planned or intended. It just worked out this way. Wow.
What GRACE do YOU allow now? Will you share?
